(Update 9/9/9: I sent my manuscript to only one publisher. Much more editing needed to be accomplished. The excitement during this time of actually sending it out is the fuel that carries me to continue to pursue my dreams. It has been a hard 9 months since this day. More chapters have been added. But I have never let go of my dreams.
When I go back and read this, I wonder how I even had the guts to do all these videos. But here they are. They are like a time capsule which will remind me to always believe in myself. I have to walk my talk right? I am on my way. You never know what life brings you. Take the punches and keep on kicking! )
This 21 day journey, which started out on a whim, has been so amazing for me. First of all, I got my book out! This is HUGE for me!!! I have been dreaming of this forever. I feel like came out of the closet, as a writer. I am soooooo excited to share my message of greater love into this world. When I get doubts that this book will be a success, I remind myselft that it was written from the depths of my heart and I was surrendered to God in the moment. That is all what matters and if doing this 21 day journey was God’s way of pushing me to get this book out, then so be it. God is leading me now. He can be the captain, I will be the co-pilot enjoying the ride.
I am feeling so happy, creative and with a zest for life that I never really had. I am in love with life! I appreciate life because I almost lost it six years ago. Did I have one of those NDE(near death experiences) that so many people talk about? Maybe. I was not conscious of seeing a tunnel or a light. When I muster all my focus to remember that moment of the impact of my car accident which nearly took my life, all I remember is seeing some feet glowing near my car, as if someone, or some angel was there protecting me. Continue Reading->
I started this 21 day process because of an idea when I woke up one morning and I followed through with it. Maybe doing this whole process helped me to strengthen even greater my faith and surrender in God. Now that I have recovered from my surgery in June and am able to walk stronger, confronting the thought of losing my house and having to even let go of being a Real Estate Broker is a big thing.
With every miracle, or out of the ordinary occurences that have happened in my life, I can move through this with the faith of steel with God that my own mother has. She is an inspiration by her faith. I have never encountered anyone in my life with this kind of faith. Continue Reading->
I took my son with me to the post office to mail my manuscript. He has been a part of this whole process. I had the intention in the beginning of this process to create many real estate listings as a visioning and prayer. Since I was talking about my dreams, and wanting the get the book edited, this accountability for myself pushed me to go the extra mile. At the post office, I encounter the parents of a boyfriend I had for two years at 18 years old and tell them what I am doing. Then someone overheard and wanted to know about the book, so I shared this website. Yikes, it’s no longer hidden. Even though I have been posting this on You Tube and want to get my message out there of Letting Go and Letting God…and Dreaming Awake, it felt surreal that I actually was getting closer to reality.
Going to see the sunset with friends was a perfect ending to all this effort, including my persistence to finish the 21 days as well. I did this because I had the vision to show my son what is possible when you follow your dreams. And since he saw me doing what I thought was crazy, it culminated today in actually sending my book to a publisher! Besides that, I was trusting again…and letting God. Continue Reading->
I spent over 12 hours editing my book so I can get it out to a publisher before the end of the 21 day period. I talk about my definition of miracle, out of the ordinary experiences. Also, by tapping into your own intuition, you can always get guidance to what is the best next step to take. Of course trusting is key. Since my story is a love story, my intention is for it to be a gift book that women give to men so that their hearts be opened and vice versa.
Since it is Thanksgiving Day and a day of sharing with family, I talk about the importance of making peace with everyone in your family. If you are not close to your family or feel you need to make peace with someone that has passed on, you can make peace in your heart by sending them love. I really believe it can be as simple as that. The most important part is to really feel that you are sending the love.
After having such a stressful day yesterday, when I woke up today, I put my mind that the first thing I would do after taking my son to school was to sit and write for two hours minimum. And I did! I was so happy. I really feel this is my passion and my biggest wish is that I could do this full time. I noticed watching myself the dramatic difference when I go from extreme left brain to right brain mode. It’s very bizarre seeing it.
Of course, money is an issue, so I have to work! I think I may have buried deep in my subconscious that I can’t have fun and make money at the same time. I want to let go of this big thought right now. I feel I am very close to achieving my dreams. It has been a long road, but I will never give up. I believe one of the secrets of The Secret and the law of attraction is to let go of any attachment to the outcome and to put your heart into it besides the visioning.
I also talk about my best friend who has done a website called www.peaceloveworld.com which was inspired by three friends.(I am one of them).
Today I had one of my most stressful days, similar to my meltdown in April when I couldn’t walk. I found a lot of roadblocks in getting my real estate listings. Everything seems to be going in a snails pace. Since I was mainly focused on real estate and not my writing, I realized that maybe what I am trying to hold on to is not going to cut it. I had to sit down and meditate several times during the day to not spin into a wave of negativity. I even did a resume to apply for a job. Of course alot of people are losing their jobs…..It takes a great deal of courage to continue plugging along without getting in to panic.
I woke up feeling very energetic. I was wondering if it was because I had been so creative in my writing the day before. I was ready to seize the day and do all my “to do’s” in my left brain mode. I talk about the importance of balancing both sides of the brain. After my accident, since I didn’t walk for one year I was not doing anything but lay down and recover. So it gave me alot of quiet time to think and meditate. I do believe something happened to me when I had a NDE(Near Death Experience). I don’t know how to explain it, but I know that something huge shifted in me in all my perceptions.
I went to my guitar class today and my teacher who is a Cuban woman in her 70’s said that courage is a combination of strength and faith. We were talking about how the Cuban people lost their country and many came here and started their life over again, yet they still maintain the unity of family, faith and perservering hardworking culture.
I am noticing that the more I write, the more peaceful I am amidst all this chaos in the economy. I still perservere to create sustenance for myself. Even though I read all the headlines of the doom and gloom in the economy, doing my passion maintains my sense of stability and happiness, at least interiorly. On the exterior, my financial life is in shambles, but I don’t let that get in the way to keep going.
Once I start exercising, I really feel the movement of my less than positive thoughts start to shake out. I am glad I didn’t lay down and cover my head in the pillow. Sometimes no matter how upbeat I try to remain, the fact is that the environment out there is not so great. The stock market keeps tanking, the automobile industry is hanging on a thread, just like me. And getting new bank listings is slow motion.
Exercise gets me back in my better state of mind where I continue to believe in all the effort I have done so far with real estate and my dream of publishing my book. I woke up this morning with the thought that I have to believe with all my heart that it has value and never stop believing that, even if my left brain kicks in and starts doubting.
