Today I had one of my most stressful days, similar to my meltdown in April when I couldn’t walk. I found a lot of roadblocks in getting my real estate listings. Everything seems to be going in a snails pace. Since I was mainly focused on real estate and not my writing, I realized that maybe what I am trying to hold on to is not going to cut it. I had to sit down and meditate several times during the day to not spin into a wave of negativity. I even did a resume to apply for a job. Of course alot of people are losing their jobs…..It takes a great deal of courage to continue plugging along without getting in to panic.
I went to my guitar class today and my teacher who is a Cuban woman in her 70’s said that courage is a combination of strength and faith. We were talking about how the Cuban people lost their country and many came here and started their life over again, yet they still maintain the unity of family, faith and perservering hardworking culture.
I am noticing that the more I write, the more peaceful I am amidst all this chaos in the economy. I still perservere to create sustenance for myself. Even though I read all the headlines of the doom and gloom in the economy, doing my passion maintains my sense of stability and happiness, at least interiorly. On the exterior, my financial life is in shambles, but I don’t let that get in the way to keep going.
