“Don’t you think it’s a sign?” I asked Cristian. We were having lunch at Baha Fresh on Miracle Mile today. This week, because of my 0wn 16 year old son motivating me to not give up on my dreams, I decided to resurrect the concept I started here with my sister. I haven’t blogged here since May 6, 2009. That happened to be the day before Sparky, my beloved Labrador died. I have been blogging my personal story at Resurrect Your Hero . These past three months have been about getting out of under water. But my dreams have always stayed alive in my heart.
I asked my son to help me with some creative ideas to revamp the character. I told him that I wanted a four leaf clover for good luck. I told him this as he was having his Lucky Charms breakfast. The challenge I have is to get him going as a teen to get focused while being a student at the same time. He is a mellow laid back kid. I love his personality, but it does take some nudging to get him focused. I am not asking him to work hours upon hours. I am simply asking him to give me ideas that I know are in his creative brain and spirit. Continue Reading->
At first I felt I wasn’t productive because I didn’t work on the real estate. But then, I did go to the gym(vital for my well being), and I listened to some teleseminars about publishing and got a better idea how to write my book proposal and other great ideas. Then I started to feel guilty for working on my dream. I think my brain gets confused sometimes. I have surrendered to God that whatever is in my highest good…my own destiny….that I be led. I have the intention of creating my life in a whole new way. No more struggle, just simply led as if by angel wings carrying me to the next step.
My guilt comes from that strong focused work eithic that I always have had and since I have identified myself as a real estate broker for 23 years, it is sometimes hard to identify myself as an author. I did get the sense around nine months ago that I could start identifying as an author, but I suppose the mind plays tricks on me, as “well where is the book?” It is real, it is 95% already created and it already exists. So today I stopped feeling guilty of doing what I was led to do.
